Frankly speaking, for me,
It. Was. Awful.
Sorry, but I'll continue this entry in Bahasa (maybe in Dwi) because I am pretty devastated right now and my mind literally cannot function at this moment.
First thing first, masa sampai depan UNITEN tu obviously my heart was racing like crazy when I lay my eyes on the big signboard. It was a mixed feeling of anxiety and banyak lagi unnecessary negative vibes. I was so dead.
Okay, lepastu kitorang were divided into groups and my group consist of 6 orang. And our first task was to discuss a case study regarding lifelong learning along with another group yang ada 7 orang.
I mean the tajuk obviously is very open and they weren't any specific benda yang dia mintak like advantages or challenges. So, we wrote down everything yang seemed possible which are, the definition, cabaran, kebaikan and lastly, how to overcome the cabaran.
Our group presented first and I terangkan few parts only sebab we dah bahagikan tugas sebelum tu. I think it went just okay for me because I tak grab the chance to answer soalan yang the other group asked and I also tak volunteered to answer the question from the judges.
Why? Well, I don't really know what to say. Yeah, because Ya Allah, only god knows how KBAT-ed the question was. And in my group there was this guy yang memang menonjol gila because well, he answered everything in english and english dia memang peh all I can say is that his English is very very tip-top.
After that, we went to the group iv which sepatutnya be like 2 session sebab akan jadi one for each group but...
Diorang memang sekali libas 13 people dalam one group interview!
Can you guys imagine how to outshine 13 people yang memang top student with great achievements??
Lagi lagi in my case which I memang seorang yang people boleh kata very timid and introverted.
The interviewer pulak tanya soalan where siapa nak jawab had to raise their hand. Well, obviously I memang will never be the first one to angkat tangan and I remembered nothing yang I cakap just now.
Apa yang I ingat was kalau nak dibandingkan dengan candidates lain yang international debater ataupun president bwp, my answer was.......emmmmmmmmmmmm.
I was so impressed by the way these people think and the way they sampaikan their ideas which was very on point. Their english was fluent and they had no sangkut at all. They even had slangs when talking in Bahasa! Meaning to say is English memang macam dah jadi everyday language diaorang and sememangnya it is an advantage.
And I rasa diorang memang layak for the scholarship dengan cara diorang berfikir and how they sampaikan their opinion about something. I rasa its a lost if they did not get chosen sebab it is incredible for 18-year-old students to have such great way of thinking and memang goosebump kalau dengar diorang bercakap.
Yes, lepas iv tu memang I down gila and memang feel like crying. Sebab bila kita in the circle of
people yang memang pandai in both academic and co-curriculum as well as communication skill, it is very normal to feel insecure (focusing more on people like me) I memang tak boleh describe the level of insecurity yang I felt during and after the interview. 😩
So, I think this kind of interview is a big no-no for me (well at least I tried). Luckily I have very supportive parents like they waited for approximately 3 hours doing nothing there just to accompany me (I am very grateful for that)
For the people out there yang face the same problem as me (lack of confidence, low communication skill etc.) don't worry because dah memang Allah cipta people ni secara adil. Like what my mom said, maybe kita takda anugerah like other people yang high confidence level or communication skill yang sangat tinggi but bukan semua orang need to have that quality.
I know comunication skill is important but, I really believe for people like me there will be a place in this world yang akan hargai our unique traits yang maybe introvert or shy and I yakin for a 100% that wujudnya a special place in our society yang mana this kind of people is important and plays a big role too.
Just embrace yourself and hargai your own personal traits!
p/s: Next week I have an interview with JCorp and I hope they see something good in me instead of judging my communication skill. Fingers crossed. 😂
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